Holidays

Holidays

We are half way through the holiday season and with concerns to my journey they have not been kind to me. With all the sweets and treats that have been around my house and the lack of tracking and exercise I'm pretty much back to where I started my journey.

With the New Year ringing in this weekend I am determined to get back on with my journey. Mo's parents and sister will be with us to go out with the old and come in with the new year. Which brings on a whole other food challenges for me. My first concern is the amount of oil in Indian food and then my second concern is the amount of food and times that we will eat. A typical day with Mo's family goes as follows: Breakfast, Teatime, Lunch, Teatime, Dinner and yet another Teatime. Not exactly the best way to get back to my journey but that's life.

Getting back on the treadmill this week will be a challenge but with help from Mo I am hoping to at least get some exercise in.

Till next week...

Doctor

Doctor

Two weeks of suffering was enough for me to break down and go to the doctor. This is a big deal for me because I hate taking medicine and always try to let my body fight it off first. I am happy to say I am feeling a little better each day now and slowly returning to the land of the living. For the first time in weeks I started to planned out what I will eat and tracked it in my food journal. I may even jump back on the treadmill and go for a slow walk today.

Now all I have to do is get my house cleaned, decorate, and shop for Christmas.

Here is the latest results. Which I might say I'm not proud of but I'm being honest.

289.4 Weight

It's now time to pick myself up and get back on my journey.

Till next week....

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving Day came with coughing, sneezing, headache and congestion. Yep, you guessed it both Mo and I are sick. If you have read my previous post you know that we picked up my in-laws at the airport when they returned home with colds. So, why are we sick?

All in all we just had to switch our plans for Thanksgiving some and spent a few hours at my parents house. I did go to Weight Watchers on Friday and sat far away from everyone at the meeting with hopes that I didn't make anyone sick. Exercise has been on the back burner since I have been hacking up a lung for the past few days.

Continuing on this journey is what I'm planning for the next week. I know I have been off track lately. Now it's time for me to get feeling better and back to a healthier way of life.

Here is the latest result:

284.4 lbs

44.5 BMI

104 lbs until the adoption process begins.

Till next week.

Airport Pickup

Airport Pickup

Returning home from a trip to New York to pick up Mo's parents from the JFK Airport and spending the weekend at his parents home never felt so good. Mo and I were making good time on our travels until we hit the city at which time our smooth car ride seemed to come to a pace that even a snail could out pace. After spending 3 hours in traffic to go a total of 15 miles on top of our 4 hour car ride just to get to the city, I was happy to get out of the car and wait for my in-laws to arrive home from their trip to Hajj.

Happy to see them again we packed them into our car for another long drive. They both were sick and coughing away but they made it home alive. After stopping briefly for Mo & I to eat our first meal of the day at 8pm we continued on with our journey. We finally reached our final destination at 11:30pm.

With all the traveling we ate many of our meals out. Lets just say I have postponed my weigh in at Weight Watchers this week until Friday. From here on out I will be attending the Friday morning meetings and will be reporting those results the following Tuesday.

Starting to undo all the bad things I have done with my diet lately will be my focus for this week. I am hoping to get back on the treadmill and burn at least 500 calories daily and drink more water this upcoming week. I have also decided that being vegetarian is just not in my cards. It was getting to be to much for me to prepare our different meals. This will also mean I will have more time to exercise because I won't be in the kitchen twice as long.

Results will be posted next Tuesday.

Till next week...

What A WeeK

What A Week

What a week. Out of respect this post will be short and not about my journey.

From someone who has lived in Central Pennsylvania my entire life the recent scandal that is rocking my hometown is heart breaking. You can't go anywhere in town without seeing a news van or hearing people talking about it. My thoughts and prayers go out to all the victims involved and may you find the strength you need to start the healing process.

Till next week..

Happy Birthday Dad

Happy Birthday Dad

I have been spending time doing fall clean up in my yard, raking an endless supply of leaves. No sooner do I get my entire yard looking nice within ten minutes it is scattered with leaves again, oh the joys of living in the woods. I really don't mind doing yard work in fact I look at it as a form of exercise, but sometimes enough is enough. I have managed to find muscles by the dull ache in my body that I didn't even know existed. On a good note they will soon be done falling. Then the snow will start falling and my new exercise buddy will be my snow shovel.

Last weekend my Dad turned 60 and we had a surprise party for him. While preparing for the party my Dad invited Mo and I to have dinner the evening of the party. I had to chuckle because he had just invited me to his own surprise party without knowing. While having breakfast out with my parents the morning of the party my Dad grabbed the bill that was brought to the table and asked Mom "Do you want me to pay for this?" As mom snatched the bill out of his hand she said "I'll buy your birthday breakfast." At this time I look at my dad and said "Is today the 5th?". Dad stood up to put his jacket on and said "Yes, today is my birthday now forget about it." As we walked out of the restaurant to the car my dad mumbled to me "See if I remember your birthday next year." jokingly. Now not only do I have him convinced that I forgot his birthday, I know he really has no clue there is going to be a party.

While he spent the morning shopping for antiques with Mom we got ready for the party and waited for the guest of honor. As we all stood outside watching my Dad take the final turn into the drive way the look on his face said it all he was having a HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

With all of the events behind us, I now have time to exercise and prepare healthy meals again. I did not make it to Weight Watchers on Monday because I lost track of time while working in my yard. I will be attending next Monday and will be posting the results in my next post no matter how good or bad.

Till next week...

Trick or Treat

Trick or Treat

Something spooky is going to happen outside this evening. The sidewalks will be full of ghosts, goblins, witches, and many other characters who will be ringing doorbells all over town.

As a child I loved the excitement of Halloween and dressing up from wearing my pj's with the slipper feet and a matching hat with bunny ears sewn on too wearing my dad's over sized flannel shirt and tying a bandana to a stick. The possibilities were limitless with what I could be this one night of the year. Now that I'm older, I look forward to seeing the scary Halloween specials & movies on television and playing a good trick on unexpected victims all in the spirit of fun.

I have avoided buying Halloween candy until the last minute this year. On my home from work today I will be stopping at the store for the candy to give out tonight. I have to be honest and say that I love chocolate and by doing my shopping last minute is my attempt to avoid any unwanted calorie consumption.

I will not be going to Weight Watcher tonight due to Trick or Treat however I will post my results from last week.

Weight: 278.2 lbs

BMI: 43.6

98 lbs until adoption process begins

C25K: Not happening at this time.

Don't panic I know my weight was up and it will come back down. Nothing is going to keep me from my goal.

Till next week...

Ooops

Oops

Oops I slipped. For the past three weeks I have not been keeping a food journal, exercising or eating healthy and it has affected me in more than one way. I have noticed my energy level is pretty much none existent and my mood has went from my happy go lucky self to blah.

Okay, Mo & I are not the McDonalds Monopoly winners. With the hopes of winning the ultimate prize of $1,000,000, I ate a large french fry about 4 times a week for the past few weeks. I don't even want to think about the amount of calories or grams of fat that I consumed now. I only want to concentrate on what I learned from this little game that McDonalds likes to play. Which is nothing comes that easy. Applying this lesson to my journey I now realize that I have to work really hard to reach my goal. From this day forward I vow that Mo or I will never eat at McDonalds again. We don't like to eat out and would much rather enjoy a good home cooked meal anyway.

This evening I will be attending Weight Watchers and facing the scale. I'm not going to like what the scale is going to say but I'm going to face it and continue on in my journey.

With the craziness of the the upcoming week I will be reporting my results on the scale on my next post.

Until next week...

Homecoming

Homecoming

Once a year my brother returns to Central PA with his

family and a group friends from Central Florida. For the past five years the sound of an air pump, pumping up air mattresses has been the official start to homecoming weekend at our home. After everyone is settled in and has a place to call home for the weekend the fun begins.

Starting off with my parents annual garage party Friday evening. Then Saturday we had an early morning wake up to finish preparing food for the tailgate and the quick trip to the Beaver stadium. Once we reach the stadium and set up our tailgate it was not uncommon to hear

WE ARE...PENN STATE chiming through the air.

This year I was not feeling the best and not wanting to let Mo

down by going home to watch the game after tailgating

I added more layers and we made our way to our seats.

Sitting there amongst 100,000+ people I fellasleep by the second quarter of the game. After, I was jolted awake by a gust of wind we enjoyed the halftime show and the remainder of the game on the edge of our seats cheering

The PSU NITTANY LIONS

on to a victory.

As quick as everyone came they start leaving on Sunday to return home and back to their normal lives. Then enters Cheenee who searches for everyone going from room to room with that sad puppy dog look of

Where did everyone go?

With the excitement of the weekend behind us we start looking forward to next year and seeing everyone again.

My weight loss journey definitely hit a mountain the past couple of weeks with preparing for our company and not feeling well. I did not go to Weight Watchers or exercise as much as I would have liked. I have no result for on my journey this week but I plan on getting back on track and look forward to reporting my results on my next post.

Until next week....

Hidden Treasures

Hidden Treasures

On a typical Sunday morning I find myself getting out of bed 2 hours earlier than Mo. Why, to drive to the neighborhood convenient store and buy the Sunday paper. The extra bonus is I also use this little trip to give another love in my life a car ride.

It's not like I really read the paper well maybe the comics and my horoscope, but when I return home I find myself going through all the pages with gusto just looking for hidden treasures. What are these treasures you might ask, well to most people they are known as coupons. When the smell of fresh brewed coffee finally does it's job waking up Mo he comes to greet me and the mess I created while cutting out and sorting my coupons. At this time he doesn't really say anything but I know he's probably thinking is this really worth your time. I then start going through the store flyer's to see if I can match the coupons to anything the store may have on sale and I start my shopping list.

When I return home from my trip to the grocery store Mo is always there to help me carry everything into the house. He never asks how much did you spend, but he does ask "How much did you save?" This is when I proudly tell him how much the bill was before the coupons and then what I paid. I always get a "Good job Honey." from him at this point. I am not what you would call an extreme couponer but I will say I have been able to cut my shopping bills in half.

Here is a good resource site for more information on couponing:

http://thecoupondiva.com/home/

Stumbling through yet another week of this journey is what you might say I have done this past week. I have been getting discouraged because I see how far I have yet to go to reach 180 lbs. I need to start focusing on smaller goals and not let the little weight losses of lately get me down. At least it's going down and I'm not gaining should be on the forefront of my mind but at this time it's not. So for all of you out there reading this some words of encouragement are greatly needed.

I will be unable to attend a Weight Watchers meeting this week due to being extra busy. So my results will remain the same for this week however, I do plan on starting the C25K plan on Wednesday morning again.

Till next week...

Emotional Eating

Emotional Eating

Depression, boredom & stress are just some of the emotions that have triggered me to eat unnecessarily. I have been blaming my extra pounds on how I have been treated by others and how stressful life is at certain times. The realization is that I have turned to food for comfort and this comfort is only temporary. Making me feel good for about five minutes then badly after I realize what I have done to myself.

This week I have had a break through with emotional eating and I am proud of myself for not turning to food. Without going into details, being in an interracial marriage has many challenges and many of my challenges are not with my husband but with his family. I have recently discovered another blog that really hits home. Mo was reading it last night and got freaked out with how similar our lives are.

Check it out:

http://bigbadblondebahu.blogspot.com

I started the week planning to gain a little. Discouraged with the .5 & .6 weight losses and thinking maybe I could trick my body to lose with gusto again. I began eating from the basket of chocolate at the office, ice cream sundaes, pizza, tacos, & french fries the basic what not to eats when trying to lose weight. See below for how this worked out for me.

It is finally official canning season is over for me. I finished with the BBQ sauce I mentioned last week. When I got to the point of adding the spicy heat in I called Mo up to the kitchen and he worked his magic. With the end resulting in a slightly sweet & hot smokey flavored sauce making both of us very happy that we took the time to make our own.

Exercise was on my mind and I did manage to walk on the treadmill 3 out of the 7 days last week. My back is feeling much better now and I did try to run some yesterday but there is still a twinge that hurts more when I run. This leads me to believe I need one more week of walking but I am going to increase my time. It has been hard pulling myself out of bed at 6am since it is now dark at that time and there are no birds singing outside my bedroom window to make me want to get up and go. I will have to work on rearranging my schedule to get my exercise time in but it will happen.

Here is the latest results:

Weight: 271.6

BMI: 42.5

C25K: On hold yet another week.

91.6 lbs until the adoption process begins.

Until next week...

First Sign of Success

First Sign of Success

I have found myself packing up summer clothes and pulling out my fall and winter clothes. You might say I was pleasantly surprised when I tried on my work pants that were stored away for the summer. They are no longer tight and a little on the loose side. On that same note Mo & I went to a wedding on Saturday and while looking for something to wear I pulled a dress out of the closet that I bought a size smaller and basically forgot about it well now it fits. Then another ah ha moment hit me on this weight lose journey, all my hard work is working. Which leads me into my next problem do I pack up my summer clothes or donate the now? I'm leaning towards packing them up, so I can see how far I've come in the spring.

Realizing how good exercise makes me feel I so wanted to get on my treadmill more that once last week. When I could not even carry a laundry basket down 10 steps without saying ouch, ouch, ouch... I know I made the right decision in taking the week off. With the help from my chiropractor and ice pack I now feel that I'm ready to get back on the treadmill and start with a slow walk for a week. Then if all goes well get back to the C25K plan.

Canning season will soon be coming to an end for me, however I still have a box of tomatoes and I am planning on making BBQ sauce with them. Here is a link to the recipe I will be using.

http://www.freshpreserving.com/recipe.aspx?r=138

I can't wait to try it and I will be sure to let you know what Mo & I think of it.

Here are my latest results.

Weight: 272.4

BMI: 42.7

92.4 lbs until adoption process begins

C25K: Plan on hold for another week due to previous back injury, But easing my way back into it by starting to walk on the treadmill.

Till next week...

Rest

Rest

This past weekend Mo and I helped my brother-in-law and his wife move into their new home. The first thing I did when we returned home from helping out was take a two hour nap after waking up I went directly to bed. I now realize since the weight is coming off I have been more active and it is okay to take a day off to rest.

I need to take it easy this coming week because I managed to hurt my back not from helping out with the move but from rushing around the house and not paying attention to what I'm doing. For the coming week I will not be doing the C25K plan. I will be strictly sticking with my points plus target to aid in my weight loss.

Once again planning ahead came to my rescue in this weight loss journey. I packed my salads and snacks for the days I would not be home while helping with the move. This also allowed me to enjoy a nice dinner with everyone without going over my points target.

Here are the latest results:
Weight: 273.0
BMI: 42.8
93lbs until adoption process begins
C25K: on hold

My lesson for the week was it is okay to rest every now and then.

Till next week...

Preparing for Winter

Preparing for Winter

Just like the squirrels hunting for nuts to put away for the winter. I too have been preparing for the long winter ahead by canning and freezing. Corn, tomatoes, green beans, peaches, eggplant, relishes, jelly & grape juice are just some of the summers bounty that I tuck away in my freezer and pantry. Canning & freezing not only helps keep down the cost of food in the winter months, but I also know what is in these foods. There is no sound more gratifying then the pop that a seal makes or nothing more frustrating than trying to stuff a full quart bag into the 1 inch square space left in the freezer after spending hours in the kitchen. However, in the end it is worth all my time and effort when we sit down to eat home made tomato soup, or enjoy a good ole peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

Since I have been up to my elbow in tomatoes lately Mo and I have enjoyed a BLT or two in the past week.

Here is my twist to this classic Sandwich:
* 2 Slices of bread (toasted)
* 1 Oz. Chevre goat cheese (I buy a herbed garlic at a local farmers market)
* 3 Slices Morningstar Farms veggie bacon strips
* 2 Thick cut slices of tomato
* 1/2 C. Spring salad mix
* 1 T. Hellmann's light mayo
* Salt & Pepper to taste




Work from bottom to top, on one slice of toast spread the Chevre then add the warm bacon, tomato, salt and pepper to taste, spring mix, then on the remaining slice of toast spread the lite mayo and top to complete this yummy BLT. We have been enjoying our BLT with a fresh ear of corn.

Yesterday I started week 1 of the Couch to 5K plan (C25K). I want to do the plan as intended however with the extent of my workouts lately week 1 is a piece "o" cake for me. I will be doing the following: M.W.F. running (C25K plan) & T.T.S.S. walking. Watch for my progress with my weekly results.

Here are the latest results.
Weight: 274.8
BMI: 43
94.8 lbs until adoption process begins.
C25K: Week 1 in progress

It was a great week for me on this journey now all I have to do is repeat, repeat, & repeat again.

Till next week...

Celebrating Too Much

Celebrating Too Much

With the satisfaction of completing my 30 Day challenge I decided to reward myself with a glass of wine. Then the next day I didn't exercise and things just kept going downward from there for the rest of the week. Then yesterday Mo asked me if I had been exercising. I was honest and said "NO, that I haven't had enough of time". Then he gently reminded me of what my goal was and how much we both want it.

This morning I got back on the treadmill and while on it I came up with a new challenge. I want to be able to run in 5K's next year. So the Couch to 5K program is my next challenge. Here is a link: http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml to the program I will be using. I will keep you informed on how I'm doing with this challenge as I go along so watch for my progress.

I have never been so happy that my weigh in day is monday. Weight Watchers was closed this monday because of Labor Day so my results for the week will remain the same as last week. I did however try to weigh in this morning on my way to work and the Weight Watchers center was not open at that time. I am not going to avoid the scale this week. I will go in and face the results of my celebrating however it will be after I have published this post for the week.

The lesson I have learned this week is not to celebrate with food. I will have to come up with a different way to celebrate my successes.

Till next week.

Grange Fair

Grange Fair 2011

The Centre County Grange Fair is like nothing most people have ever seen. When most people think of a fair they think funnel cake, games, animals and entertainment, not campers, tents and vacation. Having the privilege of growing up in Central Pennsylvania my family has been a resident of the fair for many years.

This tent has been home away from home for one week in August for as long as I can remember. I have many fond memories from the Grange Fair and like going back each year to catch up with friends that I don't get to see but once a year at the fair.


A must have at the fair for me is Sunset ice cream.





This year I went in with a plan so I would not feel guilty about having a cup of Peanut Butter Ripple. Yummy! To pass up on the many tempting fair foods, I packed salads for lunch and my family prepared our own dinner in the tent. Doing this not only helped with my diet it also helped save money.

Mo & I along with my cousin's family spent Friday night camping out in the tent. I woke up early Saturday morning because my body does so naturally and whispered to my cousin's daughter do you want to go for a run. Having left my own sneakers at home I put on my husbands and off we went running around the perimeter of the fairgrounds twice. I thought I would miss exercise due to it not being on the treadmill, however when my legs turned to jelly and ached the next day I know I had a good workout and had no need to make up for it. I must say it felt pretty good to get outside and run so I'm going to continue running in the future.

Here are my latest results.
Weight: 277
BMI: 43.4
97 lbs until adoption process begins



What I came to realize this week is it's okay to have a treat. I just have to plan for it..

Till next week.

Family & Friends

Family & Friends

Recruiting help from family & friends to reach 180 is what I have been up to this week. My husband (Mo) and I together have come up with this goal. Once I reach this goal we have agreed to start the adoption process for a child we both can love. The only thing standing in the way of having this is my weight. I have been sharing my goal with family & friends and have been receiving positive remarks like keep the exercise up, I'm proud of you, and so on.

Why didn't I do this sooner? The answer to this I can honestly say is fear. I didn't want people to know how much I weigh, and I was afraid to ask for help. Thinking I could do it all on my own only lead to failure. In the beginning of this journey I mentioned I didn't want to be afraid to live and making this public is one way to face my fear. Telling friends and family are baby steps that I am taking forward on this journey with them now at my side cheering me on I will be sure to reach 180.

This summer I discovered how good watermelon is and how much I enjoy it. Every time I come home with one Mo just rolls his eyes and utters another one. I know the season will soon be coming to an end soon and until then watermelon will continue to be in my refrigerator. One of the ways I like it is to simply cube the watermelon up and add some fresh chopped mint and refrigerate till cold. It's so yummy and the best part is you don't have to feel guilty about eating it and it's even better when you share it with friends & family.

Here are the latest results:

Weight: 280.8

BMI: 44.0

30 Day Challenge: 23 down 7 to go

The upcoming week I will be facing another hurdle which I will be sure to share. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I will be able to clear this hurdle with as much success as I did the family reunion.

Family Reunion

Family Reunion

Every year in August, I make a covered dish and my husband & I go to Whipples Dam State Park for our annual family reunion. This year the reunion was my first hurdle I had to clear on this journey to change my life and lose weight. I jolted out of bed on the day of the reunion thinking I had over slept and I would not have the time to exercise, make my casserole, and get ready. Feelings of dread came across me only to be swept away after glantzing at the alarm clock and realizing I had plenty of time to do all the above and more. We arrive at the reunion where fun was to be had but first we say grace and I grab a plate and head toward the buffet table and this is what I see.

The vegetarian in me had no problem passing up any of the dishes that had meat in them and I proceeded to make the best decisions about what to eat for myself. Looking at my plate with the food on it I thought to myself there is no way I can point this out and I was thankful for all the extra points I earned from my 30 day challenge for the week.

Back at home that evening when dinner time came around, telling myself I should not eat anything to make up for the unknown points value at lunch put me on a straight path to the refrigerator. One generously packed cheese sandwich and a big bowl of watermelon later I so badly wanted ice cream. This is when I had a ah ha moment for the day and realized my weigh in at Weight Watchers was the next day and why ruin my entire weeks work on this one day. So I went to bed..

Here is my latest results:

Weight: 285.4
BMI: 44.9
30 Day Challenge: 16 down 14 to go

Looking back on the week I not only managed to clear a hurdle. I came to realize that I don't have to punish myself for the unknown and the important thing is to remember to get right back on my journey for the better me.

30 Day Challenge

30 Day Challenge

Some say it takes 21 days to create a habit. With this in mind I have come up with a 30 day challenge for myself. For the next 30 days I am going to wake up at 6:00 am and hop on my treadmill for 45 minutes. Knowing I will be out of town a couple of these days I have decided to add 5 days onto the challenge for every day missed. My goal is to complete the challenge and create a new healthy habit. I will share my progress on this challenge along with my weight, BMI each week.

My husband (Mo) and I really don't like to eat out all that much and cooking can be a chore at times. I am a vegetarian and he is a meat eater and many times we have sat down to eat together with two entirely different meals. I managed to make a meal that we both enjoyed and I want to share it with you.

Kalasta

1 bunch Kale~washed and roughly chopped

12 oz Portabella mushroom~sliced

1/2 c. Sun dried tomatoes

1 T. Garlic~ minced

2 T. Olive oil

Salt~ to taste

Bowtie Pasta

Classico pesto~to taste

Saute the garlic mushrooms & kale in olive oil, season with salt to taste when tender add sun dried tomatoes and take off heat. Cook pasta according to package and drain.

Toss pasta, kale mixture, and pesto together.

Serve warm.

Add to or make as much or as little as you like. Enjoy!

Well my first week back on Weight Watchers went well. Packing lunches, keeping a food journal & walking on the treadmill where a big part of the past week. I have a couple of hurdles coming up in the next few weeks which I will be sure to share with you. I'm just going to go into them prepared and enjoy life.

Here is the latest results:

Weight: 290.2

BMI: 45.3

30 Day Challenge: 9 down 21 to go

Till next week.

Last Supper

Last Supper

Being honest after publishing my first post I was determined to get started on this journey and I started with a last supper. I called my husband at work and asked him to bring home Domino's Deep Dish Pacific Veggie Pizza and so he did. Then pretty much directly after eating half of the pizza I felt bad, upset, and disappointed in myself. The next morning I woke up and brushed off all the guilt of the night before and got started.

I ordered a new Withings Body Scale with all kinds of neat features. Check it out:

http://www.withings.com/en/bodyscale

Yes I know the scale is not going to do the work for me but it will be there to be brutally honest with me on a daily basis. Can't wait for it's arrival.

Exercise will be my next big step. As a proud owner of my very own treadmill I am happy to say the it has never been used as a clothes hanger. On another note it has been used on an average of 5 times a month for the past two years. This is not impressive at all and I intend on changing my exercise habits starting with dusting off the treadmill and not letting the dust settle back on it. There are other things I intend on doing to step up my activity levels & strenght stay tuned and I will eventually share.

I made it to Weight Watcher this week and the starting results for my journey are:

293.2 lbs

45.9 BMI

Saturday my family and I had a yard sale. Thinking about it the yard sale it is kinda like the beginning of this journey. I'm taking my things I don't want and offering it to the public. Just like I'm trying to get rid of old habits and sharing my journey with the public. Please stick with me for my journey and feel free to comment to inspire me on.

Till next week.

Starting Over

Starting Over

What do you mean starting over? I'm starting over with a new outlook on life. Instead of being afraid I want to embrace life and live. I want to be the skinny girl I see in the mirror not the fat woman of reality. How exactly does one change? I don't know but I'm going to give it a try.

Starting with....

Hello Weight Watchers, I'm starting over again, this time I'm sticking to it so I can make the changes in me that I want to see.

Hello Yes, to trying new things.

Goodbye fears it's time for you to go.

I have many interests and many things that I will share to get me to where I'm going and hoping you will see less of me there.

See you all next week for my first weigh in.